Live Your Life To The Fullest

Insane

2012-02-17T23:42:00.005+08:00

People should stay clear from me. I goes crazy all the time.

Fuck you.

After monday. I am gonna start meting up.

The people you can't live without can live without you.

Stubborn

2012-02-17T23:35:00.001+08:00

Fuck man, i am so stubborn. I keep bugging you. I should have just fucking screw up your life even more so that i can get out of this shit. But does that really makes me happy? No. I screw you up and get out of it doesn't make me happy. Karma, i tell myself.

Fucking hate this shit. Stuck there like an idiot. Fuck you.

#Foreveralone.

Spending

2012-02-17T23:22:00.007+08:00

I realise that its hard for me to cope with my lifestyle when i am a heavy spender. I spent alot of money on many things man. Beauty, Health supplement, luxury goods ect. The older i grow, the higher expectation that i have.

Everytime i go back to work, i have to work double or triple hard just to make up for my spending man. Its really madness. Its gonna be damn hectic for me.

Why am i so vain? Why do i care so much about branding? Why do i care so much about quality? Branding itself costs a bomb already. With branding, quality comes with it. Company spent so much money advertising to increase or create brand awareness so that they can raise their price of the products.

If i don't care about what branding like Tag Heuer and make do with just a normal watch that only costs 2 digit instead of 4 digit price tag, i would save alot of money. I have people telling me that why am i so willing to spent 4 digit amount at this age just to buy a watch man. Than they will tell me, i have this watch and it only costs like 2 digit and i am still contended with it. Its just to see the time which is the main purpose of having a watch. I care so much about branding that makes me look good, FML.

If i don't care about what branding like Lee Hwa, i wouldn't spent a 4 digit for my diamond earring. I also have people telling me why am i willing to spent so much money on such things. Eveywhere i go man. Especially when i meet up random people who doesn't know about me at all. They would think its fake. I dare not even take out my diamond earring when i am outside man. The fear of dropping it or losing it is the worse thing ever.

If i don't care about what branding, i wouldn't be a loyal customer of Yu Ren Sheng already. I have spent 4 digit amount of money buying health supplement products from them man. As compared to other health supplement company, i am sure i would be able to buy more from them at a lesser price.

If i don't care about branding, i wouldn't have spent 4 digit buying all my facial products from the thefaceshop. They have such wide variety of facial products that is so popular worldwide that the demand of their products have increase alot.

Not to mention about spending 4 digit on facial packages as well. FML.

My bro once told me before, somehow, someday i would not be able to finance such lifestyle if i am not able to earn that kind of money in a certain period of time. What happens if i cannot finance such a lifestyle by myself? I would have to make do with other alternative.

I have predicted that. It will happened to me soon. When i enlist, there goes everything.

If i didn't spent on all these, i would have a 5 digit amount of money for me to pump into stocks and earn so much more. This explains why i don't really want to eat into my investment money man. That 3-4k is meant for investment and i cannot eat into it!!! =((

I have other reserve amount but is limited man.

Guess i need to lower my standard of living slowly so that i can adapt to it.

BORED

2012-02-17T22:54:00.001+08:00

FML I AM SO BORED. I lock myself at home all day long just to mug for my exams!!!!!

Its so terrible i tell you!

I never like staying home unless i need to rest.

I can't wait for monday to be over.

I have got so much meet up requests. If i start meeting everybody all over again it would be just for a drink or meal depending on the situation. I haven't had a chance to catch a movie for like so long. I never had a chance to watch movie with you whenever we go out. People who have no time, don't have time for movie.

I need to resume meet up with others so that i can move on.

I need to go back to work. I need to find time for it. I need to go back to earn money and also to repay my boss before i enlist. I haven't been working for like few weeks!

My 22th birthday coming soon next month. Gonna make it simple. 21th on luxury yacht is the big deal, after that its considered aging and old already.

I wanna keep my life simple. I don't wanna give myself too much stress living a life i am not truly happy with.

Qualities?

2012-02-17T20:07:00.003+08:00

Whats so great about me seriously? My looks? Why so many people likes me? Why so many people message me? I can make a good friend but i doubt i can ever make a good partner. I am just insane, how can anyone stand the way i behave when i go crazy? I know my weakness and its not easy to change at all.

Life sucks when you are in my shoes. 5 years of experience and yet nothing can goes more than 2 months which is my first ex. I am just possessive and self centered. I want it my way all the time. I need alot of attention and time spent with me.

In this fast pace country like singapore, how many people can meet the expectation of mine?! It all voice down to the high expectation that i have for my partner. I have dated people from all area like schools, workforce and the army and yet most people are not able to commit to the level that i want.

Whats fucking wrong with me and my expectations man.

If i continue to have it my way, i would be just forever alone.

True, no? So many people cannot stand it when i goes insane. They would have a shock of their life. They would see a different side of me and a total change of impression. I am that scary when my split personality changes.

I have friends who are together with their partners for many years. Even for long term relationship.

I really have issues. It sucks to be me basically.

When i have time, i might go visit fengshui again. See what can be done to help treat or cure my insanity in me. The cycle just continue for me, date, go crazy and ended, date go crazy and ended. FML.

Forever Alone

2012-02-17T19:53:00.002+08:00

Guess i should be forever alone man. Given my sensitive and paranoid personality, nobody can usually stand me. I have ruin like countless of dates because of my issues. Something is just damn wrong with me.

And until now i still cannot let go. Like seriously, its madness. Guess i would need to start meeting people up all over again to let go. I could only wait til after i finish my final exam already. I kept bugging you everyday. Why you so nice to me one. Sigh.

SG Rank 2nd Lowest In The World

2012-02-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

I shall not mention the keyword in case later all the hits come to my blog since google love to promote my blog so much. Go to yahoo to read the new article that was being publish in the research.

I was not very surprise with the results though. Look at the behaviors of singaporean. They are not satisfied usually. They have such high expectation and that lead to the satisfaction level to drop to the lowest.

The normal scene, girls have such high expectation of guys when it comes to that. You must be really skillful or hot enough for them. Furthermore using safety precaution measure also reduces the pleasure of it. It also depends on the personality and how open someone is towards something as well.

The different scene, people like us have also such high expectation as well. And that these people are super ranging one. Please lah, after meeting countless, i know how things work. I have many people who message me straight away telling me you are horny. Like what the fuck. What do you expect from me? Go satisfy you meh?

With my observant and detailed nature, i am able to analyze alot of things and know how to come up with strategy to tackle people according to psychology methods. I love playing mind games with people who demands things from me. At the end, they still loss LOL. Sorry i am quite skillful muhahaha.

So how? At this rate, bird rate continue to drop, foreign talents comes in to take over, singaporeans continue to complain about it. The root of the problem is that high expectation coming from us that destroy all possibility.

Also, research shown that communication is very important when you do certain things. I mention before that i love communicating alot so yah. I know how to use communication to aid everything and increase the pleasure to the highest.

Research are that awesome. It explains everything! Thank god i mastered alot of skills from research! It has helped me so much in life!!! =)

Sigh

2012-02-16T23:11:00.001+08:00

I really don't know how to respond to you man! How do you want me to reply you? ''Love ya man! Feeling stressed for u too(referring to my exams). But then being the meticulous guy u are, i'm sure u will attain good results in the end. I meant it that way. I love ya as a fren. Can you give me the benefit of the doubt that i will just maintain that sort of feeling for u? We can love our friends too right?

I am referring to that JC student that i got to know 3 years back. Recently met me again and got my number from me again because you lost your phone or change phone or something.

You keep trying to run around the bush to express how much you love me and all. I know you are sincere and you mean it but haiz i just don't feel the same as you do man.

I know you are good looking and smart but your personality like scares me. You keep asking me to meet up and i am scare that you might fall deeper if you see me.

-.-''

NOT SATISFIED

2012-02-16T20:03:00.003+08:00

My god, i don't know whats wrong with my face. Like got outbreak nonstop! I really cannot allow the outbreak to damage my face man. Too much stress maybe. I am gonna apply my AMPOULE everyday now. I need to clear the outbreak first before dealing with the scaring and the pores problem.

Everywhere i go buy things, people will call me handsome one lol. I must take care lah.

Gonna book my facial appointment after my final exams!

1 DOWN

2012-02-16T16:18:00.003+08:00

OMG TODAY PAPER DAMN EASY LOL.

1 HOUR PAPER I FINISH IN 30 MINS! HOPE TO GET 'A' AGAIN!

TIME TO MUG FOR MY LAST 2 PAPERS!

=)))

Thank You!

2012-02-16T11:00:00.003+08:00

Yay this morning you wish me all da best for exams later! SIE SIE! =)

1 hour 20 Mins

2012-02-16T00:37:00.003+08:00

Oh man! We spent 1 hour 20 minutes talking on the phone tonight! You really know how to handle me man. I gone insane for like 3-4 times already and you are still tolerating me because you want to change me and still be friend with me. Throughout the entire conversation, it has indeed allow you to understand so much about me. It has also shown me that you are a friend worth keeping for life.

Whenever we meet, its always my understanding towards you. Tonight has allow you to understand so much about me because i speak alot about myself. Usually i don't reveal much about myself when i meet others depending who and how i feel comfortable about it.

Because of my job, i am a very detailed person and i analyze things. You got that right. I analyze people very deeply and everything. Thats why i can get the flaws out of it. You are also right about i don't accept people point of view. Its about me and my view only.

I notice, aggressive, insanity, calmness, interuptive and split personality within me. I changes mood very quickly man.

Oh and i also force you to reveal things that is very private to you. Sorry man. I don't like it that when i want to know something and i can't know. I even uses threats until you reveal. Sorry. I am demanding and unreasonable. Sorry i will change that as well.

I observe that you truly want to be my friend instead of my partner because you really have no time for me. You know its unfair to me to hang there and suffer so you want me to move on. On my part, i refuses to move on because i insist on things to work out my way. That is rather unreasonable. I just keep enforcing things to go my way kind.

Alot people cannot handle me and how did you do it? I will be the type of person most people would just give up and heck care kind. And you are very willing to solve the problem and help me even when i am so mean to you to use threats on you.

I have never seen you get insane just like that man. I am like forcing you down the throat if you don't listen to me and all. Guess i am too much and it gives you another impression of me and my split personality.

Still all my drama and yet you are still willing to change me and tell me whats wrong about myself. It shows me something.

You are just fabulous man. Thats why i fall in love with you! Now cannot already lah. We should be friends now. Better off as friends if not somehow someday you cannot handle me for sure because of the extreme side of me.

You asked me to change slowly. I know i have insanity blood within me but i am still trying to control myself.

You are just awesome just like that! The way you describe things, the voice, the tone, the meaning, the sincerity and all. I give you a thumbs up.

You know that i have been too nice to you that guilt treat you. And thats why you are willing to put in effort to change me as well. You sees the potential in me and that you are not willing to end things off in a nasty manner even when i wanted it.

Usually the most effective way to end something for me would be to turn nasty. But its very mean and not very nice lah.

I feel bless having such a friend like you haha. We only know each other for like 1-3 months only somemore.

You are just like me. Alot people cannot stand us but we are still able to rise up and shine.

We are the lone ranger as well lol.

Thanks for that man!

Oh i was shock that you actually have the thought of initiating a meet up for the first time this weekend! Usually i was the one who asked for it. You wanted to inform me only after you end tuition tonight but i have bombarded you first before you even have the chance to tell me.

Awesome you. Tell me, how would i bear to implement the threats on you? I have ruin quite a number of people in the past and i don't think i should do it anymore. You are like super turn off by what i mention and all man. You got so piss off as well. You said i am a super scary person LOL.

Ok lah split personality. Oh i also told you that i plan things properly usually hahah.

Ok lah, no hard feelings anymore. I feel touched actually.

GOOD NIGHT, FRIEND.

Thanks god my exam is in the afternoon. If not i would have been sleeping and all already.

Last 2 days of exam which is thurs and next mon to the end of my journey for my tertiary education!

Goodness

2012-02-15T22:23:00.001+08:00

One day before exams and i am having like a heated argument with you.

Just because of what i said, you have gone insane because of me.

I suffer like everyday because of you.

Do you think i bear to ruin your life?

Your life is already in a state of madness.

CALM DOWN CAN OR NOT OMG.

I think i am the type that i cannot bottle things. Like today whole day i never msg you and when i start, its like deadly to you.

FML, am i such a horrible person?

Something wrong with me man!

Gym

2012-02-15T13:52:00.002+08:00

Went to gym just now! I lost weight again!

Time to continue to mug for my first final exam tmr!

=)

2012-02-14T23:27:00.004+08:00

Stayed at home the whole day man! Mug and surf the internet! Thank you 933 for the wonderful music for the day!

V-Day

2012-02-14T10:30:00.002+08:00

I am just gonna lock myself at home to continue mugging for exams man. A very good reason to stay home to mug. Its just another day. It doesn't kill to be single anyway.

Endurence

2012-02-14T10:28:00.004+08:00

I don't know why i am willing to continue to stay by your side to motivate you to make you feel happy despite all the shit happens in your life. Tell me, how rare is that? One day before valentine, one of the worse shit happen to you and because of that, you can't fly anymore. Good news for me but bad news to you.

I know you feel super damn piss, depress, screw up. Thats why i makes you talk so that you can vent on me and all. You are like me the lone ranger kind. I can't allow you to bottle everything up all the time. You have one of the worse case situation in your life with all the family problems and i cannot allow you to take it down by yourself man.

Thats not the end of the world for you man. With your talents, why are you so worried about it? I know you need more money to finance the family but its really tough on you. I suggest that you could go seek help from town council or the mp. You are gonna breakdown someday for taking such a mad load on you.

From evening til late night, i have been smsing you to talk to you man. I know how much frustration you have when shit happens but just live with it and find another solution man. Life is never a bed of roses.

I always believe that whatever happens in life is because of the past karma. So we have to continue to do more good deed in our life to shape our present and next life.

Its not i can't let go of you, i don't want to. I need to train myself that i can't have it my way all the time. There are quite a number of people who likes me and wants to meet up with me but its either i decline or postpone it.

You should be lucky and thankful that i am super nice to you and willing to suffer for you. People who know me know that i am not the type who will just suffer in silent or for nothing one.

I will still stay by your side to share your sorrow man. I don't think i can take half the load you are having. So much problems in your life. At least you know that i am there for you.

Hang Out

2012-02-14T10:18:00.004+08:00

Great hang out before valentine day.

Thanks

2012-02-14T10:15:00.004+08:00

Yesterday my lecturer spent few hours at starbucks teaching us for the final exams. =)

Thanks for spending the time!

Hello

2012-02-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

Happy-Vday everybody.

Blog about what happened yesterday tmr.

Good night all.

Good night, you.

God bless u.

2012-02-13T12:43:00.001+08:00

Haiz i just saw an accident happening right infront of my eye fml. I was waiting for the bus around my house area and there is one female driver who come out from the carpark and bang onto the motocycle driver haiz.

When i heard the bang sound, i literally oh my god. My heart sank. I have phobia of accidents thats why i will never dare to drive.

The female driver come out to see that man and the other man from another car also came out to see.

Just nice when it happen, the police car was about to drive into the car park. When i was walking to the bus stop i already saw 2 policeman walking into the block to investigate something and another car of police man is there to follow up. At the end the policeman attend to the accident instead.

Walao eh how the female driver drive one. Drive out the carpark to the main road also can bang people.

Dont know how is the motor man already. I cant even see anything cos it was block by his motorcycle.

So scary omg. I got super phobia against accidents man.

FAINT

2012-02-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

Walao eh! Why you never give up on me one!!!! Why you like me so much one!!! Ever since that day i gave u my number, you bug me like mad. Still ask me out on valentine day. How can i go out with someone who likes me so much when i still haven't got over my ex-date man.

You really know how to run around the bush to find your way to tackle me. You just never give up and i am just too kind to you man. But just don't go over the limit okay. If not i will choose to ignore you.

Been replying some others as well but thank god i never give them my number yet. Why you all like me so much one! There are plenty of hot ones out there man.

I know my market value and because of that i don't wanna abuse it.

Ahhhhh.

Tmr noon I still wanna meet you before you fly off for few weeks one loh! :(

This few weeks, i won't be able to say good morning and good night to you anymore because you cannot be reach sigh.

AMPOULE!

2012-02-12T21:15:00.001+08:00

Sorry lah, i know i am fucking damn vain but well. I need this to salvage my precious face. I already spent few thousands on my face and i cannot let all my effort and money go to waste.

WORLDWIDE FAMOUS AMPOULE THAT DOES WONDER TO THE FACE!!!

=)))

Guide to a healthy lifestyle!

2012-02-12T19:56:00.002+08:00

I have always wanted to buy this machine so that i can do my own fruit juice everyday and i did. The fruit juice outside is either too expensive or con money one. They will add water to dilute it or add sugar syrup ect. No quality at all. I rather DIY myself!!! =)))

Berry

2012-02-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

YUMMMM

Jackfruit

2012-02-12T19:38:00.002+08:00

YUM

Mug

2012-02-12T13:55:00.001+08:00

Need to mug again -.-

CG 2012

2012-02-12T12:27:00.003+08:00

Just around my house area only! Took 300+ pics but upload abit here can le! Enjoy!

Vegeterian Dinner

2012-02-12T10:46:00.003+08:00

Had vegetarian for dinner yesterday!

Mugg

2012-02-11T12:27:00.007+08:00

Need to continue to mug hard for my final exam le. I decline all the request for meet up and postpone after my final exam.

Pain Ah

2012-02-11T12:27:00.001+08:00

My dad did acupuncture points on my whole body just now and its damn painful man. When its pain it means that something is wrong and must continue to massage the points until the pain is gone. He is gonna spend few thousand going for the courses to get the certification before opening an outlet or something to help the elderly i think. Its something to help the aging population to cure all the illness of all the elderly. He have been doing it for my whole family and relative and its working and all.

Dinner

2012-02-11T12:01:00.005+08:00

We went to have dinner together, you are late for 30 minutes because of work man. I take out the nice paper bag that contains all the gifts and you are shock lol. You are wondering why it was so big and so heavy haha. You open it slowly and got a shock.

Why got bird nest one?! 'Oh you don't like ah?' I like!!! LOL. 'Eh this one small bottle costs more than $10 bucks hor.' Really ah thanks.

Whats this? Hmmm read the chinese word, gui ling gao. Is that made of turtle? 'Eh no lah, i don't think its made of turtle, doesn't mean that the packaging has turtle shell means made from turtle lah'. Okayyy. It taste very good, you will like it. Thankss.

Took out the phiten packaging and wonder why so heavy de. Open up and wahhhhh. Got chocolates, got phiten nechlace! Than you said really didn't expect you to buy it for me. I thought you would buy the hand one instead. It must be very expensive right? No lah its fine, not very expensive lah. Thank you thank you.

Finally took out my gift card. Why the gift card cover so smooth and nice de. Than slowly open it and take out the card to see. Awww thankss. I said my handwriting was horrible so don't mind. Read the contend and later slowly put it back into cover.

Wah the whole process i was observing you and your expression man. You like a small little girl behaviour lol. Your voice suddenly become like so soft and sweet when you thank me. So different from how you behave normally. The super straight acting and manly kind LOL.

Than i treat you eat the meal as well. I don't know its because its late already or my stomach appetite has become so small. I gave you half of my portion because i know i can't finish it. But i just want to give you lah because i scare you hungry later.

So we spent 2 hours eating and chatting.

Later on go walk around and find a rather private place to hug hug and got seen by people who happen to come there LOL. You don't mind and i don't mind but not very nice lah. One of them later go back the shop and start gossiping lol.

We headed home instead...

Why am i such a turn on to you? Wahahahah i know you still like me as well lah. But you just don't have much time for me despite all the crazy commitments you have to handle god.

Of all places.... we settled down here hahhahah.

I am glad that you enjoy the night and also the birthday presents from me!

HAPPY 21TH!!!!!

I am not willing to give up no matter what. You will be overseas for training for like few weeks and i can't communicate with you through any channels at all. I can only wait til you are back man.

Sigh, lonely valentine, you already fly off le loh.

You sent me home a few times and it was my turn to do that. We don't stay very far away man.

Shopping For Gift

2012-02-11T11:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i spent like hours shopping for birthday gift, gift card and the paper bag for you man. The other time i told you that i am gonna buy you something that you really like and i gave out too much hint that you know what is it already. I am a very observant person, you saw the phiten necklace that i was wearing and it just happen that we walk pass the outlet and you talk about it.

So the other time i said i wanted to buy it for you for your 21th and you said its too expensive already cannot but well you deserve it baby. Not only you are getting a phiten necklace from me but also bird nest, herbal jelly from yu ren sheng, chocolates and gift card.

I am not a card person and if i am willing to write a card for you, it means alot lol. My hand writing also damn ugly so i rarely write for others.

Friday Gym

2012-02-11T11:05:00.004+08:00

Opps i never blog for like 2 days! Sorryyyyyy everybodyyyy.

I went to gym in the noon. Oh i lost weight LOL.

Just pump myself on the weights.

I never do cardio exercise anymore man.

Especially running, i can't be bothered lol.

Too lazy to run anyway.

Mug

2012-02-09T18:59:00.003+08:00

Whats over is over. I don't want to keep thinking about it and stress me even further anymore. Enough of stress. I am gonna mug hard for my module now.

A Mess

2012-02-09T13:48:00.001+08:00

My life is in a mess now.

I need to get everything right

Stress

2012-02-09T12:25:00.001+08:00

Fml. Stress and stress coming nonstop. Fml. I think i screw my fyp presentation for sure. My report and poster has so much flaws and got bombarded until i was speechless. Haiz.

I just hope for a pass thats all. Buddha please help me!

I dont know why i can perform so well at work and yet i cannot perform well in school. Why? Fml.

I dont want to stress myself even more now. I need energy to study and focus on one module now.

Sad man. Being independent is really tough. I got to depend on myself for everything.

Attire

2012-02-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

Walao sian, tmr morning i need to wear corporate attire man. People who know me know that i am a very casual wear person. I like it comfortable instead of fashionable. I never like wearing corporate attire because its troublesome and uncomfortable. Too humid wearing it sometimes.

Even when i went for interview for jobs in my company, i also never wear corporate attire man lolx. It depends on case by case lah. If you can impress people, why bother about attire but must be presentable enough lah.

Just for the sake of my fyp presentation tmr, i will be wearing a formal corporate attire. Long sleeves, tie, raffles suit, long pants and leather shoes. Its gonna be so humid for me but my school is damn cold so its fine.

Oh shit, i forgot to iron my clothes!

RELAX

2012-02-08T20:41:00.001+08:00

I cannot keep giving myself stress. I need to de-stress and relax and continue to study hard. Recently i over stress myself until i got pimples outbreak and all man. I need to clear my mind from the stress and study hard. Especially that final paper. I need to stop over-stressing myself. I must have confident and study!!! If you believe it, you will see it! Provided that i must put in hardwork man.

I have decided that i am not going out for any leisure activity next week to study for my exams everyday.

Oh i need to go for my facial soon as well. 8 sessions to finish by june fml.

Dieting

2012-02-08T20:32:00.002+08:00

Aiyo, i have been dieting like everyday man. I try not to consume more than what i can burn everyday. I am so mindful of the calories intake because i don't have much time to go gym alot. My stomach has indeed became smaller after all my dieting. I can only like eat half a bowl of rice now and i am full after that.

I will find time to gym but next thur is the start of my final exam already!!! I am more concern about the week after next monday last paper!!!! CANNOT FAIL!!!! I will do my best to study hard and apply the right answers to the question!!!!

I need to start praying to give me some energy for me to study and do well for my final paper!!!!

Young Businessman?

2012-02-08T20:21:00.001+08:00

Seriously, i don't know how to respond to people sometime. There was this young businessman who prove himself right that he can actually make big money and became the boss of his own company. I shall not reveal too much details if not people might be able to identify.

You have been messaging me every now and then to ask for meet up. Reason for meeting up? Of course you want to get involved with me man. You have been saying that to me all the while. I was just pondering, we are actually acquainted and why did you message me and ask for that? Its either you can't recognize me from the picture or you just want it your way.

I have been trying to humor you because i just don't want anything man. I know you are very successful but then again you can't have everything your way man. I have all the evidence of you messaging me and all. I am not gonna expose you and ruin your reputation man.

I observe that you are somehow like me. You suffer alot when you are young. You work very hard to prove to others that you are above them and you did it. And you goes around showing off how successful you are now.

Ok thanks. Even if i am gonna meet up with you, i will not do anything with you for sure. We can have a intellectual conversation over a meal instead.

Oh and i have been receiving so many msgs asking for meet up after i become single.

Question Mark?

2012-02-08T20:09:00.002+08:00

I really have no idea why are those people like us that i have met before and was blacklisted by me are all coming back to me again? Like seriously, it happens all the time! Sometimes i don't know is to forgive or continue to blacklist them. I have to first recall what happens in the past first. If i was hurt mentally or emotionally by them, i usually don't forgive.

This person is in the army now. and you have message me again to ask for meet up. I cannot forget what happens in the past man. I blog about it before years back. You ask me to go to your house to accompany you to drink because you are very upset. We are sitting on your bed and overnight, later on your partner actually climb up your outside window to like check on you. FUCK MY LIFE THAT TIME.

We didn't even do anything at all and suddenly someone just appear outside the window. Your partner also not afraid of falling to death. You didn't even tell me your have a partner and i know your motive of asking me here but i didn't drink much so that nothing will happen to me.

SO DRAMA LATER. Ok that was a past.

Now, i don't know why you wanted to meet me again.

Work hard!!!

2012-02-08T19:05:00.001+08:00

Oh man, many people that i know of is working so hard in life!!! I cannot lose out and i must work even harder!!!! Now what i have to clear is the only module that i risk failing man. After i clear that, i have nothing to stop me from working even harder now. I am gonna go all out after my final exam!!!!

I am more worried about my fyp presentation tmr man. After tmr than i continue study for that module!!!!

CHIONG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

FML

2012-02-08T19:02:00.000+08:00

Aiya!!!!! I have wasted the opportunity to earn from the stock that i wanted to buy man! FMLLLL. If i bought it the other time at that price and sell it now, i would have earn few hundreds bucks! AIYA!!!!

Oh man, need to wait for the stock price to drop before i buy it man! My full payment have not come yet!!!! I will be pumping 3-4k into the stock that i have in mind to buy!!!!

Opportunity always come and go, i must grab so that i can make money work for me!!!! Once i start investing, i might be addicted to it and instead of spending money on branded, i would pump all into stocks!!!

Preparation

2012-02-08T13:29:00.002+08:00

Tmr is my FYP presentation already! I need to get myself prepared for it man. Gonna memories my final report and its details as well as my E-poster.

They say must wear corporate attire man. Okay gonna wear it for the sake of my fyp presentation!

AWESOME

2012-02-08T13:26:00.001+08:00

Oh my god, i need to thank my ampoule seriously. It cleared so much of my pimples outbreak!!!!!! AWESOME SHIT. Gonna buy more ampoule now!!!!

Last Day

2012-02-07T22:29:00.005+08:00

It was quite cool to end the last day of school.

The tuition has help me alot. Thanks!

I need my beauty sleep. My pimples outbreak is madness. Apply my ampoule to salvage already. =(

Beauty Sleep

2012-02-06T22:39:00.003+08:00

I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP FOR TMR NOW.

LONG DAY I SUPPOSE.

TUITION FOR MY MODULE!

MUST BUCK UP.

Holding On

2012-02-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

Actually..... i am still holding on to my ex-date. I am not willing to let go. Its just like that. I need to drill myself to understand that its not everything about me myself. I have to spare a thought for others as well. At least we are still talking through sms everyday.

I said i am willing to wait.

And i will be celebrating for you before you fly off.

I realise that after meeting 3 digit individuals, i am quite sick of the cycle. I don't want to start meeting people up all over again. Interview them to check them out. QA and QC first before i decide what to do next. I shouldn't waste my time like that.

Second Last Day

2012-02-06T19:30:00.000+08:00

TIME FLIES.

I gave out chocolates to my classmates today for the first time in my 3 years of school. They have been the nicest to me as compared to the past 5 semesters of classmates.

I can't believe that how time flies.

I am like studying for the only module that i risk failing everyday man.

CNY concert

2012-02-06T19:10:00.000+08:00

Sunday Dinner

2012-02-06T19:09:00.001+08:00

Tanning

2012-02-05T15:03:00.003+08:00

Finally had some time to go tan!

Wah overflowing of people like us man.

I am tanner now yay.

My face outbreak is fml. Need more sun to kill germs.

NO

2012-02-04T22:55:00.004+08:00

In life we need to know how to say NO to people even if its blood related. If its the first time, it might cultivate some form of empathy to help you. If it happens over and over again, you deserve it. We don't expect others to clean our own shit.

Anyway oh man, i am still being bug by that person. Keep smsing me nonstop. Now you tell me can you love me as a bro. FML. Regretted giving you my number again. I know you are good looking but your personalities just makes me feel afraid of you. Maybe its like a mirror image of me. I am somehow like you as well.

Oh so i finally have a feel of how its like man. Seriously, i don't know how to respond to you. You left me speechless. You know how to run around the bush and tell me things but i know what you are actually thinking. I have to distance away myself from you already. Sooner or later you did just give up. Maybe i shouldn't even reply any of your messages anymore.

Haiz.

Off for my beauty sleep after my facial mask. I have been having outbreak all the time because lack of sleep and over stress!

OUT OF HAND

2012-02-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

The more information i overheard and eavesdropped, the more piss off i am. WHAT THE FUCK. You this irresponsible, retard, bastard son is causing the internal family to get into crisis management all because of you. Don't you have any sense of shame? Why are you getting everybody into trouble? You make everybody so troubled because of your own action.

You are uneducated and impulsive. If you have no idea what to do in life, do nothing. Don't act smart and give in to all kinds of temptation and ended up in mid life crisis. If you can settled it by yourself, its fine, but now you get everybody involved.

Its just unbelievable that all this trouble is coming from you. We don't deserve such thing from you. You are in deep shit now because you did something that only people who are super desperate would do. Now you ended up in debts and we have to settled it for you?

Don't you realise that by helping you will not guarantee any returns at all? You can't expect any of us to contribute any amount for you and ended up getting nothing back? And i doubt this would be the last time. It will happen again. A leopard never changes its spot.

Have you consider what how serious is your mid life crisis? Your own debts, not including your own business that is screw and you have 2 family on you now? What is this man. Even a young man like me can think ahead of things and you are still living in denial?

Ended, Begin, Moving On

2012-02-04T18:51:00.001+08:00

I always believe that the older generation can stay together in their marriage for a lifetime. But looks like its not now. People change, change of heart, love ended. Its the vicious life cycle of human being. Look at the high statistics of divorce rate now. Its scary.

Its a pity man. When you are willing to get married, you should put in your full commitment for your lifetime. Once you swing away, the other party would be hurt and your children would be affected. Oh well thats life.

This society has gone into a more complicated zone now. Everything seems to be into a chaotic situation. This explains why our country powers have to spent so much money doing research to find out the cause of all the situation and apply a solution to it to salvage. It cannot be solve, we know but we can do something to salvage the situation.

But i feel damn sad for them, especially his children. It will definitely affect them mentally and emotionally next time. They would grow up in a broken family with uneven love. The cycle would continue over and over again. Next time when they grew up, they might think that its ok to do that as well.

How about the wife? I don't know. Looks like its not going to be a court case. Everything will be settled in a peaceful manner. Re-married and have a new baby now. Haiz. How are you going to cope with 2 family now. I don't know.

How about your business?

Simplicity is what the richest people seek for when they have reach that level. They have seen and gone through everything. They have realise that simplicity is what makes them happy. Normal people like us are stuck in this rat race trying to compete who is more successful, who is richer, who has this and that.

Why.

I don't think i am like this last time. Because of the surrounding and the exposure that i had has motivate me to strive for the best. Everything has to be the best.

This has officially became the first case in my family tree. Well good luck man.

DAMN NOISY

2012-02-04T15:39:00.002+08:00

I don't think i can study already. I did just read the notes and all can already.

My uncle, one man and one bitch. The bitch like shouting don't know for what fuck. Don't know if thats the mistress but i doubt so because how would she dare to come show face to my parents.

COMPLICATED MUCH.

MEN ARE SLUTS

2012-02-04T15:38:00.003+08:00

Okay i know its unfair for me to say that men are sluts but i didn't say all men are sluts. Nowadays many people are having private affairs outside and behind their wife. Its disgusting! If people like us are doing that, its pretty normal because we don't have any commitment.

If people who are married and have mistress outside still dare to come back to con his own mother money, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS. Karma, i tell you.

Some more now your business is screw up or something, you want to come back for help? And are you trying to con money because you are helping your mistress pay for her gambling? I don't know how true but she went to gamble and lose alot of money and in debts now.

FUCK MAN. MY GOD. Gambling is the root of all evil. Mistress is the end of the world.

I don't know why he bring 2 other people come my house. 3 person vs my dad and mum?!

I was actually having a loud enough volume of 933 in my room so that i can't focus on what they are saying outside. I am afraid that later i can't stand what they say and i go out of my room and start bombarding them without knowing all the details.

FML

2012-02-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

Haiz. I pity my grandma man. Speechless. That bastard coming to my house talk to my parents don't know for what fuck. Married man with 3 childrens and still dare to have mistress outside. Scam my grandma money and now don't know coming up with what stunt to con my grandma pieces of land now.

Let my parents settle, i can't be bothered. I lock myself in my room and study instead. But how to study so noisy!!!!

I realise that my parents never tell me anything. I have to observe and analyze about the conversation that they talk about.

That bastard bring like 2 other people to my house for what fuck i don't know. SHOWDOWN IS IT.

Gym

2012-02-04T15:22:00.001+08:00

I went to gym just now! Pump hard.

Work On Hold

2012-02-04T12:17:00.000+08:00

I am gonna put everything on hold now. I am not going back to work until i finish my final exam. I have to spent all my time to brush up on my module NOW. No joke, if i fail my final exam, i have to repeat the module which cannot happen to me.

My studies are more important than my work now. Get my priority right.

Feedback

2012-02-04T12:16:00.000+08:00

My mentor is a doctor degree lecturer. And that is the first time i actually have a conversation with him. I was observing what he says and everything yesterday. He told me that i am a intelligent person. I have been working hard towards my goals in life. I know alot of famous people, good contacts and connections ect. I have seen the world and all. The thing is that i don't know how he knows everything about me. Must be my other lecturers who told him about it.

Oh he also mention in a polite manner that i am a little arrogant LOL. I shouldn't have said that in front of him lah. He ask me where did i did my internship and i told him about it. I told him that my company only take in intern from mass comm courses. Since my school don't have mass comm courses and i am the first person in the school history to gets in there to do my internship. And i work very hard for it without depending on my education courses or anything.

I think i should learn how to eat the humble pie man.

He also told me to work hard for my final exam. There is no way i can pass except by myself. If not i have to repeat man. Not worth spending another sem to repeat. I keep thinking about the worse case situation lah.

2 weeks is all i have NOW. I am gonna buck up and do well!!!!

I can tell that my mentor is a very nice person with the short conversation. A man with a hell lot of experiences in life. He tell me that i have 40 years down the road to strive for success or something lol.

DTF RWS

2012-02-04T11:52:00.003+08:00

Went to rws with my family to have dinner yesterday night!

Regretted

2012-02-04T11:46:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't have allow this to happened once again. I once blog about you on my blog before. 3 years ago when i know you, you are merely an underage JC kid. We met up and you fall in love with me. You start bombarding me with messages after we exchange numbers. I got so afraid of you that i stop replying your smses. You got so piss off and all. Soon or later you just forget about it.

Yesterday evening we met again and the drama started again, FML. After 3 years i met you again, you look so much better now. Nice bod, good looking face. But somehow your character is still the same. You lost my number and you ask for my number again and i gave you thinking that its fine.

You start bombarding me again. Holy cow. You still say why you can't love me once again and all. I know you mean what you say and not just for fun. But then again omgggg.

Now you change topic that you wanna find a soulmate that you can hang out with all the time and meet me more often and all.

I don't want to hurt you man. You are a nice person. I got to be tactful now. And hello, you are in combat, you should be very busy, you still have time to keep smsing me.

Work hard

2012-02-04T11:45:00.003+08:00

I speak to my mentor and he told me that I can only depend on my own hark work to pass my final exam now. If not no one else can help me already. 2 weeks time for me to study hard for that final exam. I need tuition already. I am not willing to spend another semester to repeat one module man.

I am gonna study for that module everyday!!!!!! My final exam just get good grades!!!!

Iphone4 lens

2012-02-04T11:43:00.004+08:00

I find it unbelievable that the macro lens can take such awesome close up pictures that none of my image capturing device can do that. THUMBS UP.

BATH UP

2012-02-02T22:09:00.002+08:00

Goodness me. Work is killing me. Its seriously making me go crazy. People working in our industry are people who goes insane the fastest. I have few colleagues who are too stress up over the time which makes them goes insane. HARD TRUTH. Shall not explain further what actually happens, i was shock as well, sigh.

Alot of things i am not supposed to reveal because of the confidentiality of it. I don't wish to get into trouble just because of what i wrote. I have to be mindful about it. I just feel that i had to rant because its too stressful. Alot people don't know how much money are pump into it to make things work for them.

Money makes the world goes round and round. With money, you can do almost anything. People work for money unless they don't have to. People like us who work so hard to produce what they want has indeed shorten our lifespan.

If not our mind goes insane first. Life is never a bed of roses and people are never nice like an angle. Seriously, SERIOUSLY. FUCK UP.

Guess i need a few days of break to rest again. 3 days of working straight. And if i don't take a break to recharge, i will go insane again. I had alot of stress recently, i don't want to go crazy.

I had did my BEST for this project and i have met my high expectation of myself. I produce more work than others and also reach my own target. ENOUGH.

Stress

2012-02-01T23:45:00.001+08:00

Work is stress.

Something else is stressing me even more now. FML DIE.

I don't know what can i do now.

Gym

2012-02-01T15:13:00.001+08:00

Went to pump myself just now!!!!

Peseverence

2012-02-01T12:26:00.001+08:00

Sean koh, you need to endure and persevere til the very end. You cannot give up just because of how much challenges you are facing in life. It will only make you stronger, to motivate you to work even harder to RISE ABOVE people.

I always believe that people like us are VERY TALENTED people. This explains why most of the people like us are rich people as well. With great talents, it make money for us.

I don't understand why are we always being discriminated. Like seriously, look at the western countries, everything is so open up and over flowing. Asians are just too narrow minded and conservative. This is no longer a stone age world. Its a open world that makes up plenty of people like us. Just in singapore, i didn't expect that people like us have grown so much over the years. Literally, all over the place. Mostly discreet or simple hidden or not out of the closet yet. My radar is just damn good because my observation skills is damn good.

I have interviewed at least 5000 to 10,000 people (Professionals of all levels and people from all walks of life from all over the country and the world) in my 2.5 years of working. Tell me, who else of MY AGE can do it? I don't print money but i work super hard for it.

One of the reason why i am able to impress people because of my talent. This is one of the most difficult job ever because we deals with people and its really damn stressful.

Enough said.

Chill Pill

2012-02-01T12:02:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i think i am giving myself too much stress. I should take a chill pill. I have been working so hard to strive for the best and everything. I don't want to get depress time and again because i don't meet the expectation that i have set for myself.

I went back to work yesterday night. Thank god its manageable. There are times when i just feel that work is so stressful that i just don't feel like going back to work. Somehow i had a high kpi work done again. I need to show it to my boss that i am there for him during the good and bad time at work. Shall not reveal too much info about my work because its p&c.

There are alot of things at work and about work that i wanna talk about but sometimes its just hard.

Out of my final 3 modules, 2 module have already pass up til this stage. The only module that i have a hard time coping, i will do my best and get over and done with. Nothing is stressing me except this module. The FEAR of failing the module is causing great stress for me.

I think i should be single my whole lifetime. When i get too stress up, i will goes insane. Nobody can stand my insanity. After getting involved with countless, i know it well. Nobody can stand it. I can be a very nice person but when i go crazy, i changes to another person. My split personalities takes over.

All i have in mind is to work really hard in life. To perform above my best at work and to impress people. To earn a hell lot of money to make my life better.

REGRETTED

2012-02-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

FUCK I SHOULDNT HAVE GONE TO SCHOOL TODAY FUCK.

Gonna study fucking hard for my final exam for this shit module. FUCK.

WITH MONEY, YOU CAN BUY ALMOST ANYTHING. I CAN BUY MC AND ANYTHING I WANT.

NEED TO CALM DOWN

2012-02-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

FUCK I AM GOING INSANE AGAIN.

LIFE IS FUCKING TOO STRESS FOR ME.

I NEED TO HECK CARE.

STUDYING A FUCK UP MODULE THAT I HAVE ZERO INTEREST IN.

I AM NOT GOING TO STUDY ANYTHING I AM NOT INTERESTED IN IN MY LIFETIME ANYMORE.

I CAN FUCKING PERFORM SO WELL AT WORK AND EARN SO MUCH MONEY AND WHY DO I FUCKING HAVE TO STUDY.

FML

2012-01-31T23:36:00.001+08:00

I FEEL DAMN STRESS NOW.

FUCK MY LIFE CHAO CHEE BYE.

The only module that risk failing and having to repeat is fucking my life upside down. I just hate this shit module. I have no idea how to do the work and all as well. Its not even the module that i choose, the school auto choose for me FML.

And now i am back to work and all the stress.

Its fucking horrible having to multi task all over again.

I am still kept hanging over my ex-date. I know you are still helping me but i dont know man.

LIFE SUCKS LAH CB

Lunch

2012-01-31T12:44:00.003+08:00

This is my lunch, see so healthy!!!! Usually i wouldn't have all the fried food for my meals. Stay clear from those high in salt, sugar and fattening food. Steam dumpling instead of fried dumpling. Fruits is for sure! And first time buy the balls.

Oh today class will end super early!!!!! So little people come only. No presentation, no RJ nothing. SHIOK MAN.

Think class would end on 1.30pm. Will go home rest first than go back company for meeting and start working already!!! Wanna gain more knowledge and earn money!!! Tata!!

GOOD NIGHT

2012-01-30T22:20:00.001+08:00

Time for my beauty sleep alr. Tmr will be a long day!!! -.-''

Time to go back to the stressful zone of working, HOLY.

20 YEARS?! 0.o

2012-01-30T22:17:00.003+08:00

Oh my holy cow, i got a shock out of my life when my bro parcel came today. My parents open it and ask me to inform my bro about it. I was reading the document and wondering, huh 20 years of membership?! I didn't know that country club has 20 years of membership at one go. Thats like madness, 20 years down the road we will be like damn old already!!! No more diamond anymore, become gold already!

20 years of membership for my bro to play golf and use all the facilities there. I think its unbelievable. All thanks to our forces. And i am more concern about can the membership card be transfer to others to use it. My bro say can i think. Which mean that i can use his card to go there to gym and all!

The problem is that i have a gym 3 minutes walking distance away from my house and do i have to travel all the way down to the country club to gym?! It doesn't make sense right? Furthermore, i am a bloody road idiot, just normal places i can get lost already. Ask me go all the way to such ulu places, halfway i would lost my way already. So basically without anyone driving me there, i can forget about going there.

20 years of membership is like never ending. I can ask my family to go together to enjoy the facilities there though. Got car to drive so its okay. If not i can bring my friends who have car to go together. My bro is not even in singapore most of the time, why waste the membership man.

I have no idea how is the country club protocol is like for entry and all. When i have time, i would ring them up and start bombarding my questions already! I need to have a understanding of the rules and regulation before i go there if not later screw up.

Tired

2012-01-30T18:02:00.003+08:00

I better sleep early tonight. I feels so damn tired because of the lack of sleep yesterday night. I have not been sleeping enough like all the time! Super shag.

I need to find time to gym as well.

Remind to self that tmr will be a long day. I need to go back to company for meeting and work.

Stress zone start again sigh.

No pain no gain.

Steamboat

2012-01-30T11:37:00.001+08:00

Steamboat with frens!

Cleaned!

2012-01-30T11:36:00.002+08:00

BLINK BLINK BLINKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

CNY Gathering!

2012-01-30T11:22:00.000+08:00

=))

S-flowers 2012

2012-01-30T10:50:00.002+08:00

Went with my family to sentosa!

-.-

2012-01-29T14:27:00.001+08:00

我还是放不下...:((

And theres this fat gal sitting beside me in the bus making me feel damn gross....

I dont know why the few other hot one come at the wrong time when i still 放不下 haiz.

Moving On?

2012-01-29T13:12:00.002+08:00

More or less, i have withdraw myself from my ex-date already. The problem now is that i got a few hot one who message me and ask if we could go out and all. I don't know why so many people are attracted to me. I get like so many messages everyday.

I have high expectation usually. I don't just meet up any cats and dogs. I want qualities. People with no qualities will be out of my list for sure.

I was thinking, would i die remaining single? I keep trying to date here and there. There is no one that is long lasting. Up til now, nobody can beat the record of my first ex and that is really a short timing. I think the main problem lies with me.

I am possessive, paranoid, insecure, self centered.

5 YEARS in the circle already my god. I am still like that. If i say i did made changes to it, i did but not enough.

Just go with the flow man. I am not very positive about such things that will not have a happy ending usually. All good things eventually comes to an end.

Family Problems

2012-01-29T13:06:00.005+08:00

Haiz, i wonder why. Why many people have family problems. Complicated family problems. Most of my recent dates all have family problems and they have to spent more time with their family or to solve the problem and all. Damn saddening man.

I should be thankful that i have a full family with no problems at all.

Haizzzzz. I don't know why i feel damn sad about people who have family problems. Especially my last ex-date. So sad that you have to be the bread winner of the family at such young age. =(((

TYPICAL

2012-01-28T11:38:00.004+08:00

Walan eh, i just re-announce my statue being single and i get all the msgs again. Asking for whatever, whenever, however. Haiz. I am not in the mood for anything man. Even the hottest one who msg me doesn't appeal to me because i don't have the mood for anything.

Brand New Day!

2012-01-28T10:54:00.002+08:00

I feel so much better after yesterday night! Thanks (baby) my good friend now! Who knows if fate allows, we can be together again next time? =) But i am very worried for you. With your state now, you hardly have time for people. And it will continue until you become successful one day. Youth is our diamond, once we lose our youth, we lose alot of things but well. But you swing both ways so its not too bad.

Talking to you really enriched myself because the things you talk about are of a certain levels. If you were to ask me what i like about you, intellectual would be the first. Followed by your skills, ability, self independence, charisma and looks. You are not the super damn gorgeous kind but good enough. I like!

I am not prepared to start a new journey with anyone else for the time being.

Information

2012-01-28T10:46:00.002+08:00

I also took the opportunity to find out more about someone whom i have fall in love with before with you since both of you are in the same school before. My initial thought was something happened between both of you as well. But i didn't expect that both of you are only acquainted and he is such a turn off to you that you instance roll eyes in front of him when you see him LOL. Was it that bad!

Both of you are very intellectual people but of course cannot be compared to you lah. You are way smarter than many others and this also explains why it land you a place in the top professional course in the local top uni. So i make you explain why you find him a turn off and you explained. Hmmm interesting discovery LOL.

I just be neutral about things lah. Oh well. Sometimes things got too complicated that you wouldn't want to bother about it.

Proud

2012-01-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

Oh shit, i know alot people dont like me because i am damn proud. I like to show off.

This is the real world. You are being judge by your looks and whatever you have.

Reality check.

I will continue to work harder in life to achieve simplicity i hope.

Nothing comes easy.

Ended Off With A Smile

2012-01-28T02:08:00.001+08:00

I believe that you are one of the highly intellectual ones that i have ever met in my years in the circle. I am glad that you know how to handle me at the end which salvage the entire situation instead of turning nasty. Seriously, nobody can take it when my insanity started. Just because you don't have much time for me and i started being crazy.

Seriously, nobody would be able to take the nonsense from me. When i go crazy, i don't care what i type in my text messages. But i am mindful that whatever that i type will not be able to get me into any legal case. Lucky i summer down and you didn't hang up my call for meet up.

So we met, everything chill. You are too stressful, i thought i was troubled but you are troubled instead. So i spend time talking to you. Heart to heart talk lah. I know what kind of situation you are facing in life especially family problems and all. I know that you have things that you just don't feel like saying because of pride and all. But you know that my skill level is at the top and somehow i manage to like dig everything out from you in a nice manner.

I am just too skillful but in a good way. I collect information, data and details very fast and easily because i want to understand you better. I know its really tough for you, i don't think i can take it if i am in your shoes. You have to work your ass off just to take care of your family. Like a sole bread winner.

This explains why you are way smarter, intellectual and more knowledgeable than many people of your age. Oh not to mention you are younger than me. The reason why i like to interview people because i want to know what kinds of qualities do they have.

You are one amazing person that attracted me alot.

While talking to you, i still grab your hands and embrace you. We know that it cannot work out because you have very little time for yourself not to mention for others. You know that it your fault for being unfair to me and all.

We come up to a conclusion that we should become good friends instead and yeah.

So later i decided to reveal info that i actually know your ex and got involved before and eventually got into my reject black list. And also your best friend also got involved with me before but never get into my blacklist. How interesting and small world but well.

Its great that we can still remain in a chill yet cool manner lah. Somehow tonight, i manage to withdraw myself from you after clearing all the air. You know that you are not easily turn on by people and i am highly skilled to be able to turn you on all the time.

We had our last involvement.

I sent you off later. Sweet.

Yes, you will become my good friend and we must always stay in contact.

Other details i shall not reveal already. I don't want anybody who reads my blog is able to identify you through the details that i have blog about.

Thank you for this 2 weeks! =)

You are awesome, although you might suffer alot now but i believe you will rise above and shine when you finally become successful next time. You will become successful. You have been in all kinds of jobs before and you work really hard to work for money.

Actually i feel bad. The money that you earned is for your family. I am working so hard to finance my branded and luxury. You still thought you earned more than me lol. When i give you a range of how much i actually earned, you got a shock out of your life lol.

Ok lah i work damn hard for it. My boss gave me alot of opportunity as well. Thank you thank you.

I will meet you again soon before you fly off!!!

You are someone that i will definitely want to keep for lifetime.

P/s: Sorry my english sucks now. Everything like bad english and poor sentence structure.

Thanks

2012-01-28T01:45:00.001+08:00

I told my dad that i was feeling super depress and my insanity is acting again. He spent a long time talking to me and enlightening me. He also taught me the acupuncture points and did it on my body to help me release stress or whatever.

Appreciated.

Gaining Knowledge

2012-01-28T01:43:00.003+08:00

I realise that i need to window shop to make myself feel better. I actually went into one branded health supplement outlet and started interviewing the retail staff about the abalone that the company is selling.

They are manufacturing their own abalone that comes from NZL, Aus, Mexico. And mexico abalone are the better one as compared to the rest. They have different sizes and places of producing the abalone. They have abalone coming from the top 3 biggest abalone manufacturers i suppose.

They will harvest the big ones and left go the small abalone that they catch from the big sea. The size of the heart of the abalone matters alot as well. The bigger and thicker the heart, the better it is.

Hard to put in words man. I freaking ask plenty of questions. The retail staff is a senior looking man. He is very knowledgeable and friendly man. He spent alot of time and effort explaining alot of things to me.

Later i went to look at their bird nest pieces one and started interviewing as well.

Lazy to put in words man. But i gain quite alot of knowledge about bird nest of different nesting, harvesting and production as well as the abalone stuffs too.

Ouch

2012-01-28T01:33:00.001+08:00

I really went to slap myself and pinch myself to wake up my idea from being insane.

I feel that my face is too expensive for me to slap myself and end up damaging my tissues and skin complex.

I feel like my hands are too flawless for me to pinch myself until it become blue black.

I only did it once of the above mention and i stop it.

Try for the sake of experiencing.

Crazy

2012-01-27T18:08:00.001+08:00

Its time i should learn how to settle my own shit by myself. I cant allow ppl ard me to suffer cos im crazy. I need to find a place to slap myself until i wake up.

Insanity

2012-01-27T17:30:00.001+08:00

My insanity is acting again... Lord please tame me... I dont want to go insane and end the date...

So Tired...

2012-01-27T09:34:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh, i feel like a zombie now. I can't fucking sleep properly yesterday night. Lack of beauty sleep chui.

Early morning go to school for lecturer. Never had lecturer style before, this is the first time. FML.

Volunteers management ...? CANT BE BOTHERED.

yum

2012-01-27T09:32:00.001+08:00

Yum

9 Course Dinner

2012-01-27T09:31:00.000+08:00

Went to meet friends for dinner ytd night.

Work Harder

2012-01-26T12:12:00.004+08:00

I need to continue to work harder in life. The target for this year would be of course gets into commando and perform really well in there. If i can perform really well at work, i don't see why i can't perform in the military as well. I must strive harder in life to earn more money, more achievement, something that i am proud of.

I am gonna start investing this year as well. My 3-4k of reserved for stocks will be pumping in right after the recession start.

Should stop spending of branded as well.

Simplicity

2012-01-26T11:33:00.002+08:00

I was thinking why am i so vain, so materialistic, so arrogant, so proud. All thanks to this bloody polluted circle and the culture. Ever since i step into this circle 5 years back, my mentors have taught me things that allow me to move on from there. I observe and analyze how things work so that i can work on it.

Facial, diamonds, gold, luxury watch, bird nest, snow jelly, manuka honey ect. Tell me, who the hell of my age would be able to enjoy such things? And i think i am very old already. I am 22 this year, gosh.

Just because i wanna show others that i don't like i have more branded than you, i eat better food than you and so on.

I think life is about simplicity. The more complicated it is, the more hectic it would be. This society has shown us that you are what you eat and what you wear. People judge you based on what you have.

I think alot of people don't like me because i am super show off. But i earn it for myself so i dare to show off. I work so hard to earn it for myself.

Oh well, can't be bothered man. Just take things as it is now. All i know is that when i enlist for the 2 years, i will never get to enjoy any comfort food or luxury much man. Where got time to enjoy??? Under my table got like a dozen boxes of yu ren shen health supplement like bird nest ect man. The expiry date is few years so its still ok.

I don't even get to get my luxury watch, my diamond and gold in army as well.

Its back to square one basically. Simplicity.

Live Your Life To The Fullest

Insane

Stubborn

Spending

BORED

Qualities?

Forever Alone

SG Rank 2nd Lowest In The World

Sigh

NOT SATISFIED

1 DOWN

Thank You!

1 hour 20 Mins

Goodness

Gym

=)

V-Day

Endurence

Hang Out

Thanks

Hello

God bless u.

FAINT

AMPOULE!

Guide to a healthy lifestyle!

Berry

Jackfruit

Mug

CG 2012

Vegeterian Dinner

Mugg

Pain Ah

Dinner

Shopping For Gift

Friday Gym

Mug

A Mess

Stress

Attire

RELAX

*Dieting*

Young Businessman?

Question Mark?

Work hard!!!

FML

Preparation

AWESOME

Last Day

Beauty Sleep

Holding On

Second Last Day

CNY concert

Sunday Dinner

Tanning

NO

OUT OF HAND

Ended, Begin, Moving On

DAMN NOISY

MEN ARE SLUTS

FML

Gym

Work On Hold

Feedback

DTF RWS

Regretted

Work hard

Iphone4 lens

BATH UP

Stress

Gym

Peseverence

Chill Pill

REGRETTED

NEED TO CALM DOWN

FML

Lunch

GOOD NIGHT

20 YEARS?! 0.o

Tired

Steamboat

Dieting